First things first…

I guess I should start off where I left off. My precious baby boy! He is now 9 months going on 10 months old! Where has the time gone? My once 8 pound little baby is now a SOLID 25-26 pounds! I definitely get a work out holding him! He is still the center of my world and I fall in love with him over and over again! I get up for work, drop him at the babysitters, get to work and by the first break at 9 a.m. I am already missing him dearly! He now cries when I hand him over which breaks my heart every time even though I know he will stop in 2 minutes!

He has grown so fast physically but also mentally! He crawls (FAST!), sits up, stands up, sits down, making all kinds of noises and laughter, eating table food, and is on the verge of walking and talking! Where did he go? He used to fit in my cradled arms and just stare up at me with his deep brown little eyes! You never actually know what a mother is talking about when they say flies by until you experience it! He has taught me patience on so many levels! It all started when we were trying to get pregnant and God said wait! As always I was saddened and every month I was distraught after another negative pregnancy test! And now as a parent I am more laid back, let him try to figure it out first kind of mom. The Nicole everyone knew and still knows would never be like this! I am still the worrier in all aspects of life, just not as much with Titus! I don’t know what it is but I think I just want him to learn to be independent and strong! To be a leader in life! My sister once told me that if you pray for patience then God WILL make you wait! (She said “so don’t ever pray for patience!” Haha) But in a way I am glad he taught me wait and to have patience! If I hadn’t I would not have gotten this miracle I now love!

I could not have asked for a better baby! He is still laid back, quiet until he knows you, and a well behaved baby! Yes he has his moments but he is different than other babies! He is good in public and at restaurants! He isn’t really as picky eater and he loves to drink water! He plays with his toys alone and is happy for it! He isn’t definitely my introverted child but still a socialite! Just like his momma, he can be social but he needs his time to recharge! He still sleeps in his crib and gladly so! But I tell him all the time that I can’t wait to have sleepovers with him in momma’s bed!

There are some things that I have definitely done different and against doctor’s advice! We bought a house (blog to come!) and it was a very stressful time in our lives trying to get things fixed so we could move in and finally have a home! Amongst the stress my milk dried up and I soon after ran out of my frozen stash! I couldn’t afford to be feeding him formula all time so I gave him cow’s milk with karo and water right away! I know I know, baby shouldn’t have cow’s milk until 1 year old. But it is what my grandma gave mom and it is what my mom gave my brother because they wouldn’t take formula! So why not try it? The worst that could happen is he could have a reaction and I would have a panic attack and go to the hospital. But if I never try it I won’t even know. Lo and behold he is perfectly fine. He just has to take a multi vitamin every day that he gladly takes! I also feed my child whatever I want! Again, if he doesn’t try it how will I know if it affects him? So I have given him strawberries, chocolate, etc. In low proportions of course! But I am not going to hide my child from the world!

I officially started cloth diapering him full time in April! Everything is still going fantastically and I seem to be showing more and more people that it is an easy thing to do! And showing them that is definitely cheaper in the end! And not to mention that is healthier for the environment and easy to do all at the same time!

Enough of my child for now, even though I could talk about him for weeks!

“A baby fills a place in your heart you never knew was empty!”

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I Held You!

There are moments in my day where I look around my little apartment and realize how much there is to do! The dining room/desk area has needed organized for a while now, the dishes need clean, laundry needs done, the floors need vacuumed, and a whole lot of others chores need done! But what is it I do with my whole day? I hold my baby! Do I put him down time to time to do a little bit of the chores? Yes! Are the chores my number one priority? No. I spent the first week of my little boy’s life stressing and worrying! I told myself that I needed to enjoy my child as long as I could because they will never be this little again! Soon he won’t want me to cuddle him all the time, he won’t want me kissing all over him, and he will be wanting to crawl and play all the time! So I choose to have a messy house because I choose to lay my child in my arms or on my chest to sleep. I choose to stare at his precious little face looking up at me! There is no other place I would rather be than sitting in a chair looking at my little boy!

At night I bath him, read him a bedtime story, feed him, and then rock him to sleep. Lately I have been catching myself prematurely laying him down in his crib too soon! Which means I am going to and from his bedroom trying to calm him with his soother and go back to sleep. In the end I usually have to pick him back up and rock him longer to go back to sleep. I would much rather be out in my chair watching television, playing games on my phone, or even cleaning up the house rather than rocking him so long to sleep. Sometimes it takes me 40 minutes to rock him to sleep. I realized I need to enjoy this time with him! He is happy in my arms, smelling my skin and falling asleep to the sound of rain! Which means I should be soaking in the love and bond that we are sharing! I don’t always realize it but my son is becoming more and more like a momma’s boy! Sometimes he just wants me! Me to hold him, me to look at, or even just me to feed him in the mornings instead of daddy! He isn’t always going to want to admit that he is a momma’s boy so I want to soak it in! I need to LIVE IN THE MOMENT! Be his one and only! Teach him love and kindness!

Just a little advice to new or even advanced mom’s.

Live in the moment!

The chores will still be there tomorrow!